Chelsey

If you’re an ocean then I wanna jump right in. If you’re a hand grenade then I’ll pull the pin

With the world slowly dying, my heart keeps on fighting knowing someday I will see you again.

And if you cut me open I could shine.

Senior year is quickly ending. And as I am being accepted to college…it’s becoming more realistic that at the end of summer I’ll live alone in a different place with new rules and new faces.

Let me just say that majority of my junior year was hell. Austin hall made me crazy for a short time. Then I made some bad decisions and “the clan” made sure to make my life a living hell. They succeeded. They’d call me every night and leave me nasty voicemails. Especially Cait smith. Which in my book is pretty ironic cause she was getting with Ben Gallow while he dated Rachel. So yeah. They made my life so miserable that some days I just wouldn’t go to lunch and eat and I’d hide out in the library or computer lab because of the vibes id get at the lunch table. And they made sure to remind me that I was a coward for skipping lunch. With all that said….it made me really reserved which is why I don’t go out a lot. Junior year changed for the better on April 14. And not trying to be cheesy but I’ve been happiest in my life over the course of these past 9 months. Except lately. But it’s being worked on.

So yeah we broke up. Things happen. I did it not because I wanted to…but to prove a point. And do what’s best for me. Standing up for how I deserve to be treated. Call me emotional and irrational. I don’t care. I know I made the best decision.

Leaving brookley for college is going to be awful.

I haven’t partied my senior year. Got drunk with my friends. Or smoked some weed. That’s not what life is about. I’ve cut so many people from my life. Not from anger. But I can’t bear the thought of getting close with so many people then leaving them when I go to college. So I have surrounded myself with who is most important.

I ran out of things to say…

maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

I honestly feel that if I was gone tomorrow not too many people would miss me. Only a few.